GGAD通信集 第6章 The Fifth Owl (From AD)

August 4th,1952

公元1952年，八月4日

Dear Gellert,

亲爱的盖勒特，

I know it would be better for me to wait for you to contact me. I'm afraid I'm a quite a disadvantage—Nurmengard is rather out of range for Legilimency. I can only guess at the best way to approach you now.

我知道待你来联系我对我而言该会更好。我怕我正处于相当不利的地位——纽蒙迦德完全不在摄神取念的范围内。我现在只能用我能猜到的最好的方式来接近你了。

I remember your sulks, in those weeks we spent together. The way you'd leave abruptly if offended, cut youself off radiate darkness, come back a few hours late as if nothing was wrong. Hours have turned into month, I suppose? Time in isolation can stretch so, and I have experienced only briefly, compared to you. And I do not say this to mock you. I found even your sulks intriguing—your wild flights of emotion were part of your charm.

我犹记在我们共度的那几个星期里你的愠怒。那时要是不慎冒犯了你，你就会像现在这样，陡然离去，放射着阴郁，几小时后平常的好像从未有什么令人不悦的事发生过似的归来。我猜忖，几个小时现在变成几个月了吗？被禁锢着的时间可以被如此拉长，与你相比，我只是短暂的经历过。我说这点并不是为了嘲笑你。我甚至发现你的愠怒非常有趣——你情绪的狂野奔放是你魅力的一部分。

And I know it would be better for me leave you to it, but I cannot bring myself to simply let you be. lt is one of mg failings, I suppose, the tendency to overstretch myself and meddle. And now, were we face to face, I suppose you would snap at me for mock humility and leave..

我知道把你留在其中对我而言应该会更好，但我实在不能让自己放任你不管。我思忖，我总是把自己的长鼻子过分伸到别人那去多管闲事的倾向，恰是我的缺陷之一。现在，若我们正面对面的话，我想你该会对我的假谦逊发怒并离去……

I come begging back to you, yes. Not as famous wizard, not as a Hogwarts Professor, not as anything in which I might have pride. Merely as a man, for that is all we are in the end. You once called this old man friend. And you wrote me seeking, I can only imagine, simple correspondence. I would like that very much. And I speak in plain honesty, and you have every right to be angry with me.

是的，我恳求你回来。不是作为著名的巫师，不是作为一名霍格沃茨教授，不是作为我可能会引以为傲的任何身份。仅仅作为一个普通人，这是在一切尘埃落定之后，我们所有人仅能存在的身份了。你曾称这个老人为朋友。你曾写信向我征求简单的信件来往，这本只属于我的胡思乱想。我一直很渴望我们还可以如此。我只是在真诚朴素地向你倾吐心声，你也完全有权生我的气。

I do not hate you. Could you bring yourself to believe that, to judge me fairly for it? Could you bring yourself not to hate me?

我一点儿也没有恨你。你能让自己相信这一点，并为此公正的审判我么？你能亦让你自己也不再恨我么？

Regards,

在此致意，

译者注：

[1]for that is all we are in the end：这句话也是反复改了好几遍……最后我还是把we理解成我们所有人的意思了……(也许只有在死亡的那一刻，我们才会享有真正的平等吧……)我觉得这是最不突兀的理解了……可是还是发现没有一个人译的跟我一样(晕)

幸好暑假翻译了几篇，国庆闲来无事就狂发，明天又要开始忙了……(讨厌开学)

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第6章 The Fifth Owl (From AD)